Still Trying...

Hime is still trying... still learning... still trying and learnin!

hope i day i can be someone i can be proud of ...

as for now... i am who i am... i am juz striving to be a better me....

The Art Of Trust

To trust someone is hard.. well at least 4 me!!! at times i tot i did but guessed i din.

been thinkin too much to the extend i tire myself! over what?? i am realli clueless... liitle things seem to get to me!! perhaps i fear too much?!! or maybe is juz me that pushed myself to the extend of accepting things as they are! as the saying goes "there wun be disappointment, if there is no expectations"!! how true is that!?? i dunno...

hime juz wanna be happy... sighz...

maybe.. perhaps... i am so sleepy till i am so negative...

i need my zzz...

Missing You...

I am missing someone...

I am missing someone dearie to me...

I am missing my Mr Big SSS.....

My Life

Had the sudden urge to listen to david tao's songs... Went to sogou.com.. created a playlist with my all time favourite david tao's song... listen listen ah ~ :) it seems like David tao is juz singing my life away with his songs and melodious voice.

It always nice to be a song that represents how u feel or think when at times your own words seem to fail u! :) lucky me... i have a couple of songs... ironically, almost are all from David's tao black tangerine album! perhaps i am bias but that is one hell of an album! guess what.. i bought the album 2 times coz it re-package 2 times! winks...

supposed to meet snakie tml but guess he needs the rest as he going to have a long long thurs and friday coz of RSAF parade and open hse! I shall be a good ger and stay home.. guess also have to start reading my school textbooks liao! :) been slacking on my revision due to projects! finally 2 down and 1 more to go! the last one onli left with editing and luckily there is a ITE lecturer in my marketing grp whom is a pro in editing! LOLZ!! i guess the marketing project is in goodie hands. i saw his first draft editing... he give me the impression he is editing his students' assignment. Wuhahahaha....

So far... later will be my last and final lecture for Organizational behaviour! although i find the lecturer very gay and utterly bias kind, i love my class especially my OB project members! within such a short time, i have found a group of frenz i would love to bring along this simple life of mine! blessed in ways i can't describe.. :)

Last sat was the final Ob assignment meeting to tie all the loose ends of the project! Too bad clara is unable to attend coz she was at work high high up in the sky serving coffee/tea! lolz!! will be bringing my camera to lecture later... going to do some serious cam whoring then!


attendance list for sat.. me, wyne and jun hao!


Could never complete the OB project without their help... woo hoo...


me and the leader of the pack... lolz...


babes on the loose... :) STOP!!

Realli hope will be in the same class as them in sem 2!! wishing upon all my lucky stars...

Oh one last ting before i go for my afternoon nap!! LOLZ!! :) i have decided.. yes i have le snakie... lolz... me plan to get a sausage doggie once i am able to move out! LOLZ! sad that my mother dislikes animals hence unable to adopt one at this very moment. all along my ideal doggie is a golden retriever but i stay HDB lehz!! placin a big and active doggie like retriever is like killin the poor animal! deprievin of his needed space plus me no money to stay private property lor!!!!

So one rainy afternoon, as i was walkin to the mrt station, a kawaii long-haired brown colour sauage dog walked past me!! LOLZ! it so adorable!! his long body... his side to side swayin butt and his mini short legs moving so fast in order to catch up wif his owner's pace! the sight is so amusing! what made me laugh was the sausage doggie walked into a pool of water and it splashed up right into its face! LOLZ! the doggie was in shock and started to cough! argh... it melted my heart!! such an adorable creature.. i would love to have one one sweet day! and i am going to name him or her.. CHOCOLATE! :)

I love my future CHOCOLATE!

Almost done.. Almost there...

Been burying myself in tons of notes and textbooks... been glueing my eyes to my laptop screen in reading through online journals... searching for theories' explanations and definition... use Microsoft word to type thousands of words... YES! I am almost done.. almost there... To completion!! :) feeling all so satisfied with myself and my determination!!

Noe is kind of fan jian to say... but i kind of enjoying doing my assignments especially for my marketing essays! lolz.. since poly days, one of my favourite models was marketing! :) but telling me to live thru the stress again.. i will hold second tots. Anyway i have another 5 more terms to go with such stress.. guess i wun be missing the stress for long! LOLZ! :)

was chatting with one of my poly pals the other day on msn while doing my marketing papers!! he is now at sydney taking his second yr degree in biomedical science! :) one of those few classmates of mine that continued on in science fields!! sometimes... i juz wonder how would life be for me if i'm able to further my education overseas! is an experience that i noe i will never, ever forgot!! while guess i can onli dream and imagine ba..

going to la la land to dream liao...

A New Member Named Peacie

Today been a busy and fruitful LONG day!!

Wake up 430 am in the morning for an early medan flight! Thanks goodness is a short flight wif a great set of crew!! Well... pax not tat goodie lehz but i din realli feel the impact coz the demandin pax are not complaining to me! winks.. the advantage of being a galley stewardess! LOLZ!

Reached home... washed up and start my Effective communications reading, summary writing and some other crappy stuff!! it feels like junior college days once doing where i have to take GP (general paper)!! sweats....

Happy... manage to finish most of it and now onli left e research portion which i will leave it for tml or sat!

Started on my marketing project!! FINALLY!! so glad.. despite my almost dead brain, manage to come out with some points for the questions i had been assigned to! :) Tml have to start expanding it to full sentences! argh ~ so many things to do!

besides school work and flyin... rushed for driving lesson at 5 pm and dinner with my HOPE gers at 7 pm! sweats... all the rushin is makin me exhausted! :/

Well to reward myself... i got myself another lovely carebear!! HARMONY BEAR whom i name her peacie! :)

Adoption fee: S$16.90
Adoption Centre: Bedok NTUC
Adopted by: ME ME ME!!

My lovely Peacie...


She did manage to cheer me up! So did my mr bigg sss... winks...

i will be fine... :)

I Am Roasted!

Sighz... today realli make me damn worn out!! Suddenly feel the tiredness of juggling so many things in my life.. working... studyin... learnin driving... meeting up with frenz etc! simply so many things to do and so little time.. i need a hug..

mr big sss... where r u??? :)

Couldn't realli focus in class today! i feel giddy!! is tat kind of floating feeling... and despite how hard u wanna focus, u can't!! ur head juz keep spinning!! conclusion.. lack of zzz! Hahaha... so this will be a short entry with more pictures! :) let the picures do the toking...

Went to sentosa ytday and now.. YES i am roasted!! PAIN esp at the shoulder and back area!! is flowing red!! and now my body has 3 skin tones.. lolz...

Sentosa!!!!


My straw huge bag and volleyball!! :) Getting into the mood...


the weather is goodie gd gd!! clear skies... perfect for a day out at the beach...


Big mama n i posing 4 e camera.. lolz...


a shy vonnie... lolz... roasting in the sun!!!


A black and white pic.... courtesy of big mama!! can u see me n vonnie in the pic??!!!


Wee Wee's emo slippers... standing alone in the sand...


one last pic before we left the sandy beach for an hr cycling!! this is my lovely company for the day!


on the monotrail back to vivo city for dinner and some shopping..


Is still us lor.... with me n wee cut away.. lolz...


some serious work is going about at the outskirt of sentosa... :) it's going to be my future workplace wor!!


Construction seems to be going on well.. hmm...


Wuhahaha.. some camera whoring at vivo city ladies..


Kissy goldfish... lolz...


juz the 3 of us.. i love my gers...

Went to Harbour front sakae for dinner! :) had their buffet!! Yummy and OMG... did we ordered so many stuff!! plz take a look...


FOOD!! now i noe y i can never get rid of my tokin tummy.. argh...

Guess we ordered so much food liao.. so we ended up eating the ingredients and throwing away the sushi rice!! LOLZ!!

Evidence of our crime.. oops...


1# in the plastic container...


2# between plates...


3# our shopping paper bag...

LOLZ!! sinful ah... simply sinful...

Before we hit home... have to show off our tan...


wee wee's obvious sun burnt!!

LOLZ!! good times always end faster than u expected... i can't wait to go back to sentosa... i juz love the sun... the beach... and the company... winks...

Care Bear Family

Did some research.. and had shocking findings!! amazed...

Do you noe there are over 40 carebear characters and if u include their cousins (not the bear characters la), there are 50 over liao!! Shit.. now 2 collect them all?!! i will be broke...

Hence i decide to call out to all my frenz out there.. xmas gifts this yr shall be carebears plz! lolz... bday gifts in January can also be carebears!! Plz help poor me fulfil my long time wish of collecting the whole family of care bears!! :)

Now me aiming for harmony bear!! i noe NTUC is selling at 16.90 bucks!! going to get it later.. dun care!! no one can stop me... argh.....

dun believe me... this is the evidence of the carebears taken at bedok NTUC! winks...

Busy Like A Little Bubble Bee!

Today is a damn hectic day! did so many things in one day and it certainly pleases me!! At least at the end of today, before i wish the world good night, i can say... YES IT HAD BEEN A FRUITFUL DAY! :)

Started out with driving lessons in the morning! My instructor seems to be a jolly good mood and is kinda of infectious! LOLZ!! But close to the ending part of the lesson, guess i was not realli focusing, did lotsa stupid and silly mistakes!! shit but lookin on the bright side, i rather i do all these silly mistakes NOW and learnt it well than during my practical test! Bleahz!! Aiming for a first time pass... finger cross... and if it helps, my toes are crossed as well! Wuhahaha...

Went back to bedok interchange to help Mr big ssss buy his S$8M dollar winning toto tickets! LOLZ!! the queue was damn freaking long! stood in the line for about 30 min to buy 5 coupons that is worth the cost price of 10 bucks! The exciting part is... This is my virgin attempt in buying toto though i do not know what i am buying! err.. sweats right! i'm juz followin instructions given by mr big sss himself!!

Things to say to the counter person:
#1 - System 7, 2 copies separately ($3.50 + #3.50 = $7)
#2 - "Creek-pig" (dunno what is the word or what it means la!! is sound like this.. so... hehe...) $1, 3 copies separately ($3)

Total = $10

Mr big sss in return.. he is going to treat me to ice cold beer's yum yum chix wings, cheesy pizza and mini burgers + a week supply of snake meat *drooling* wuhahaha... he better keep his words or else i will skin him alive and make snake leather wallet out of it. OH....

FINALLY bought a pair of covered shoes at bedok interchange!! cost onli 10 bucks wor! cheap deal...

Juz went shopping + KBOX the other day with von + wee! aim is to buy covered shoes but ended up buying a pair of golden coloured wedges from Charles & Keith! well no regrets at all! i am realli a sucker for charles & keith!! majority of my shoe collections come from charles & keith! :) even my school bag is that brand... big fan!!!

Meet up with Clara, my new found gf from school for assignment discussion!! happy to say, It went smoothly! :) manage to have a fair share of gossiping while getting the task done!! feeling satisfied!!! totally!!!

Also did my Organizational behaviour online quiz! :) scored 85%!! proud of it sia... haha... the test is manageable though, personally i find it a little tricky! nevertheless, i am pleased with my marks and no more OB quiz circling ard my head! Now i have to focus on marketing... quiz is next week! sighz... this time round, aiming a 100%?!!! i shall try... winks...

Before ending this entry... :) some pictures which were took sometime ago! wanted to blog it out but.. laziness got the better of me!! welll here u go...

OUTING WIF POLY GANG


vonnie & me... Orchard mc cafe!! :)


big mama & me!!!


lolz... beauties and the beast...


Girl power rocks!!!!

BATCH GER PAULINE 21st BDAY

My sweetie's 21 bday at aloha chalet!! :) Miss her lots...


Silkair Attendence list at the bday bash...


61 is the magical number... :)

I juz miss my batch gers...