Recovery Stage

on the road to recovery!! throat doesn't hurt that much... nose seems to be clear and not runny... dun feel feverish... it definitely feels great to be back in shape and able to focus again!!

Sighz for the past few days... i dunno what i am studying!! head kept spinning round and round as i watched the words swam about in front of me!! knew it needed rest but time seemed to be running out! haiz... so sianz to be sick when examz are juz ard the corner! nevertheless, i am glad i am able to recover before my first paper!! hopefully i will...

Hao Ren You Hao Bao

Sighz... feeling damn sick! Down with throat infection and a bad flu!! Initially woke up with a dry throat, however by the time i landed in sin, i am simply gone case! went to the clinich at terminal 2 and i am diagnosed with throat infection!! shit!! feeling miserable and i juz wanna get well before examz!! praying hard

During MEAL service, i kept on sneezing! GOSH... can u imagine the food in front of me and i am sneezing!! Geeks... luckily pax are kind enough to pardon me! :) Chat with a pax... i rem his surname... Mr Kennendy! Charming and humble with a killer smile... what a combi! that wifey of his a damn lucky woman! at times.. some woman juz get all the luck... lolz...

Despite being sick, Boo boo still feel loved and blessed!! and the recent happenings made me believe even stronger in the phrase hao ren you hao bao! :) i not trying to say i am a HAO REN but at least i try to be one!! Guess the efforts paid off!!

"lost" my textbook a few days but was found... thanks to my OB - QM mates! :) helped me in the big search for my textbook!! thanks to my LAW seniors who agreed to lend me their textbook for the examz!! the help is overwhelming! i have to agree... i am spolit!!

Today once again this pt was proven!! wuhaha now the aircraft carts are all changed to those light weight kind! guess i pulled the meal cart too hard.... and the whole cart toppled onto the floor with a loud THUD! sighz... thanks goodness is before flight and the caterer is able to change a brand new set for me!! all the plates are broken... the fruits are contaminated with broken porelain bits... and i am so DAMN guilty! BUT no one blamed or scolded me!! instead they all insisted it wasn't my fault... accidents do happen! :) Blessed...

Before the caterer uncle peng left, he told me if it is other crew he wun care liao!! lolz.. he will scold liao! LOLZ coz is me mehz.. so uncle peng willing to help! winks... coz as he say.. i am a HAO REN! LOLZ... me big head big head le...

Snakie sent me some of his fav songs and i am feasting my ears to them! :) love the songs he love... :) boo boo walking behind snakie... taking the steps that snakie took... onli hope i wun get lost...

Ping Pong Balls

Crying always make me very tired.. make my eyes look like big ping pong balls... but i will always have a good night zzz when i cry...

mentally and physically draining!! guess i realli need some quality time to re-charge! i guess i own my body and mind tat.. :)

Juz feeling a little stupid.. a little silly... little disappointed... little foolish... little naive-thinking... a little of this and that!! But when a lot of this little things add up.. it could even be more major than one major big issue! i am not upset with anyone or anything.. juz felt i got excited for nothing! went to do research for nothing!! i juz couldn't hide my disappointment... and if tat is bothering then next time i will noe what to do....

i noe it is vexing to keep repeating the same thing over and over again... i am also trying to stop this vicious cycle!! i supposed silence is the best thing coz i have no guarantee i can stop being a jam tape recorder.

noe is unfair for my emo-ing to affect pple ard me! i apologize and i sincerely do!! i will do my best to keep it under wraps but is sad that with pple close to me, i had to do so... however if tat is necessary i will do it.. guess it is unfair for them to be the victims everytime. haiz....

noe what i do or say is not pleasing... and is not intentional yet it is. guess there are many issues to work out in this lifetime... scary thing is a lifetime might not even be enough!!! learning to not to be bothered too much about the little details... learning to see the picture in a bigger and less selfish prospective... yet learning to love and treat myself better! :) every single one is entitled to such things...

yes... as what someone told me... learn to let go.. go with the flow and naturally things will come ur way! been fighting so long... struggling for so long.. stressed out... I WAN TO OVERCOME IT!!! and it is something onli me.. and yes onli me.. can do that to help myself....

it all comes down to one cruel yet sweet fact... YOURSELF....

i learnt it hard and i shall learnt it well....

Just Some "NONSENSE" of Mine...

Tried my first attempt on online shopping! :) Juz did payment for a top ytday so hopefully the seller will be shipping it over soon soon!! excited sia.. LOLZ!! bought a 23.90 top to test the waters... wanna see whether the size fit me coz it is a free size top and to see their service!! are they as goodie as the comments i found on the feedback bulletin?!! hahaha if u see me advertising their website, it means it did live up to its name! wuhaha

Found this interesting article...

http://news.sg.msn.com/oddities/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1731080

Gosh poor australian guy!! got eaten by a crocodile and its sentence??!! lifetime mating with other female crocs??! HUH!! and now the victim can never ever mate with his wife liao! what the hell!!

wuhahaha now "gentlemen"... dun u wish tat our law treats us like croc??!! LOLZ!!!

had been under the weather since ytday.. little restless and feverish! was appractically struggling through work and hit my bed once i reached home!! zzz for abt an hr... still a little giddy but much better!! my nose is giving a little headache with occasionally runny nose and the next min is a blocked nose! sianz...

sighz... maybe is juz me... sensitive me... perhaps... i juz dun wanna care abt anything le... almost wanted to break down and cry during driving and parellel parking practice!! dunno is it too tired... can't seem to be able to focus and i having double visions! shit.. old liao??!! luckily things got better... able to get my concentration rolling!! major sweats...

Juz wanna have a hug... anyone?? sighz.....

What Is Wrong Wif Me?

Sighz... feeling restless all of the sudden!! was feelin alright... snakie came all the way from harbour front to see me and send me yummy yummy doughnuts from batam... had 3 days of rest.. i shd be feelin blessed and re-charged! YET... i feel tired... stressed up...

have the sudden need to be alone... i dun feel like toking... dun feel like doing anything...

Perhaps i juz need some personal time to myself.. quality time....

Is A Blue Tuesday...

Standby day but so far no call up for any flight!! :) Judging from the time, i tink i juz earned yet another off day! Guess no vacational off since april earned me a high sky working hours compared to other crew ba!

HAHA... is a long off for me then... returned back to base on sun morn 535 am... then mon off.. today "off" and tml scheduled off... i shall considered it my UNOFFICIAL vac off ba! winks...

Spent my morn ponderin thru what i would like to take for my sem 2 modules! had mde my choices so now is juz waiting for my gers to decide on theirs! tml morn will be meeting wyne and clara online to key in the module options le... fingers cross to be in the same class as my lovely gers! :)

Feeling little blue... without any particular reasons!! hormones up to its mischief again ba... emo-ing and feeling irritable at the slight thing!! seeing at the dates... is that time of the month again where i will be having cramps and doing things slow motion.

next mon will be my last seminar for my company law module! sad to see yet again the separation of another good project group! enjoyed their company totally... :) BUT something is bugging me... one of the member say he says a secret to tell me... i asked him what.. he say next week then can tell!! perhaps i am thinking too much... but a ger's 6th sense telling me is smthing wrong and someone is going to get hurt! let's hope i am readin too much between the lines... well i had it all planned out! will be sticking to the rest for the last seminar and avoid ALONE-TIME with that member! i concluded... this secret i would rather not noe... as the saying goes, CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT! phew...

completed the first draft of my QM project.. :) sent it out!!! now juz waiting for the rest to give their comments liao!!! going to chiong for examz preparations for i juz can't seem to settle down!! read thru my notes wif a shut-off brain!! i need coffee ba... becoming a coffee addict liao! very soon my coffee tolerance level will increase and when tat comes.. guess i am dead!! have to use toothpicks to keep my eyes open. sighz...

Life seems stagnant with studies and books!! i miss my freedom... i miss those little heart-warming tings in life... i miss those bitchy gossips over coffee for hrs... i miss my snakie... i miss my frenz...

Felt i dug my own grave but is a grave that i will continue to dig... coz at the bottom of the grave... i noe i will dig out a long ladder for me to climb up! winks....

Wish me luck pple... whee whee....