Exhausted

Exhausted


What i can feel now is nothing but tiredness...

I feel like an empty vessel at times...

I am really worn out from all the trying...

Achieving some thing may not be a good thing...

Now it seems the good thing has become a burden in some sense...

All those sudden news and comments worn me out...

I have no more energy to go about what the right choices of what i want...

How to decide when i dun even noe what i want...

How to choose what to give up and what to go all out for...

Too many factors around me...

God please help me...

Please dun abandon me...

Late Night...

Late Night...


Guess where i am now?? Home?? NOPE... not in the comfort of my own home!! Dearie's place? NOPE... but i hope i am!! HAHA i am now at bugis firebase lan shop using their computer! Going to use the computer the whole night coz keepin my Dearie accompany! He now workin at the lan shop... midnight shift!! Had not been able to spend time with Dearie these few days so decided to sacraifice my beauty zzz and 12 bucks from my purse!! LOLZ...

Sighz now i am surrounded by guys of all ages... guys of all different sizes... different faces... different height etc etc but they have one thing in common... they are all gamers!! Those kind of die-heart gamers!! LOLZ... all playing games and it feels so weird tat i am the onli one blogging, lookin at flowerpod, on msn, watching mv etc! Anything but gaming!! SWEATS! But dun care la... i also pay 12 bucks so i can use the computer anyway i like! Haha...

Went for JAL first round of interview this afternoon!! The interview was faster than i expected and some of unorganized when it came to sendin the gers into the interview room!! I went in with 3 gers onli... interview number 87 and 95! What happen to 91 and 93?? I think is either they are late or they came early coz i reached the place right on the spot! Well their interview was carried out in a very relaxing way! I mean the atmosphere is not as intense compared to SIA and Silkair interviews and that made me less nervous for sure!

There were 5 interviewers.. or is it 4... i can't realli rem! LOLZ... then the gers n i were asked to do a simple self-introduction including the answer to this question, "Why u want to be a FS with JAL?"!! i think this is an expected question and i am glad tat i did practice this question at home and with wee! :) Though i din really say what i had practiced, i do manage to state out some main points in my own on e spot words! Haha... hope is good enough for the interviewers! Sighz... then one ger was asked a question! My question was, "How would u feel if u can fly?" For a moment i din realli understood what she meant as in FLY?!! I mean of superman... and flying fox kind of flying! Then the interviewer rephrase her question which this time round, thanks goodness i understood!! Haiz... i hope this does not kill my chance of going on to the next round for JAL! Praying it wun... :p

Thanks God for hearing my prayers all this while! I realli felt ur presense during the interview... tellin me tat i will be juz fine!! :) I found strength through God.. Praise the Lord!!!

Yaya & Rowie >>>>
Thanks thanks for acc me before the interview!! Or else i think i will be too nervous to actually do my best at the interview! :) enjoyed the catching-up session at BK... we must meet up again soon!

After the interview... went on a shopping spree with von n wee at paya lebar This Fashion! Think most people would have the impression that This Fashion clothes are bad quality, cheap stuff and lousy design but i dun tink so!! There are nice pieces if u realli make an effort to go look for them hence i would say is a place would you can buy nice clothes when ur budget is tight! Hehe... like me at the moment!! hehe got myself 2 top and 2 bottom at 30% off, thus i ended up paying juz 53 bucks! Is a goodie bargain... can't wait to wear them to work and silkair training! :)

Sha la la... :P

Some Recent Photos!

Some Recent Photos!


Wuhaha... I'm not realli in the right state of mind to blog coz the zzz-ly bug is biting me but i STILL wan add an entry!! I decided to blog some recent photo of my pals n i!!! :) Goodie memories of mine...


HOPE at Katong's Settlers' Cafe!! Celebrating rowie's 22nd bday!! Sorri ger... it was a belated one but we had fun!! haha but i realize the games we play realli dun need so much thinkin!! Are we brainless creatures??!! LOLZ...


Me and my Bestie sister!!! Some times i feel though our characters are so diff.. i am amazed we could click so well! :) Opposite attracts even in the same genders! Hehe...


The threesome gang ah! Wuhaha been meeting up with these pals of mine quite often this few days and i juz love their acc! :) Ah i miss my poly days!!!


I am so grateful to God for sendin this fren to me! She helped me lots!! Thanks wee for everything... esp all those times i was feelin down! :) U always knew how to pull me up to my feet with ur supportive yet frank advices!


Xiao Ben!! He is like my sister in a form of the male species!! LOLZ...hope he wun see this then kill me!?? This guy changes his HP like i-dunno-how-many-times but thanks to his hp, always have nice pic to blog! Thanks ah Jie Mei...


Lastly... Me n Mr Purple Piggy! Took this pic at Suntec's N.Y.D.C!! Sweats.. i tink mr piggy long long time din bathe liao coz i can feel the layer of dirt n dust on him! Stupid Ben still put him near my face! Luckily no pimples ah or else i will kill him...

Wuhaha okie dorkie... i have come to the an end of my pic gallery!! Yippe...

I'm Okie Le...

I'm Okie Le...


YES pple... i am okie le!! Realli... seriously... :)

Cried a bit... Tok to my Dearie... Sms sessions with Yaya... MSN with wee...

I am more clear of my direction in life...

I am confident enough to move on le...

And i Have God with me...

More than enough...

First Sunday Shift!

First Sunday Shift!


Today is my first sunday shift at SGH! LOLZ... and the conclusion?? It was fun yet a little boring!! Fun in a sense the staff on shift are all the colleagues that i get along with but maybe not tat familiar hence there are some weird pauses when i tok to them! :p Little boring as the workload is not tat high... is about 100+ discharged cases and they are evenly spread out! After lunch went to IPS 48 to help out with the walk-in IMRs and did some topping up before knock off! Haha time flies and the best part of the whole shift is... it is DOUBLE PAY! Hehe... i am juz sooo $$ face!

Find life can be sooo ironic! Today i woke up late for work! Supposingly i have to start work at 9.30 am, and damn it... my hp alarm din ring! Noe y?? I set the alarm to go off from Mon - Fri and today is a SUN! Sighz... i ended waking up at 8.10 am and thanks goodness for Yaya's sms! LOLZ... or else i might juz zzz till afternoon! Rush rush to work... i din even take my breakfast and i manage to reach retail pharmacy at the spot!! Sighz... then the ground-shaking news... i'm supposed to start work at 9 am! Xia told me the wrong timing! SOBZ... i was still late no matter what!! Even if i did wake up in time, i will still be late! Sweats... Rushed for nothing like tat! But they din blame me la... juz very amused over my blur-ness! SORRI to my colleages!!

Some personal tots of mine... NOT to be taken seriously...

I feel sort of tired!! Though everything seems to be coming my way... i juz feel worn out by the situation and the people ard me! I feel i shd be happy but i juz can't be as happy as i realli want to be! Y? There is always smthing tat pulled me back to be shouting out in joy!! i'm realli afraid tat my reactions will hurt pple along the way and i feel suppressing them is the best choice! However this supressing is making me numb! i am finding it hard to express myself le! Haiz...

Tink i shd not be so self centred!!?!! Maybe becoz of this tat made me feel little down and exhausted! I know there is pple out there tat needs more attention than me but i juz can't help but to hope the pple ard me can show me more enthausium to my present life and what it is about to be! Perhaps i expect too much from them?! BUT is more pats on the back smthing a lot to ask for?!! More time spent on me in assuring that my life will be alright?!! Giving me more time to be happy of what i had achieved difficult?!! Sighz... maybe it is! Or maybe is juz me and my selfish thinking playing tricks on me! Tink is better not to go ponder about as i believe is juz a passing phrase... God will help me thru de!! :)

P.S: This is not directing to anyone!! Is juz some feelings of mine... i juz need to vent it out! :)

HAHA.. i'm going to be fine! I will be fine... I am a survivor!!

Accumulative Entry

Accumulative Entry


Haha.. Interesting title right?!! Haha i meant to update my bloggie for the past few days but juz couldn't find time and energy to do so! Call me lazy ba?! Lolz... but is realli tiring! Worked the whole day... excluding Thursday which is the Silkair medical checkup then after work, meet up with pals!! :) Though is tiring, i enjoyed every single minute of it! Filled with exciting moments with some downs but i'm still toppie top top condition! :) Hope tml work at Retail and IPS 48 will be a fun one!

For this entry... I will try to summarize my whole week's happening!! Hehe... That is y it is called accumulative! Make sense right?!!! :p

First all it is the Silkair medical checkup!! Actually supposed to be on this coming tue which is 25th July 2006 but it was brought forward to thurs, 20th july 2006! Heard some rumours that it was pushed forward coz Silkair hopes to start their training sooner than planned! Honestly I hope not for some reasons which i will mention later de!!!

The medical checkup was pretty fast! LOLZ...was carried out at 2 locations, Clifford dispensary at Harbourfront Place and some old clinic located at Chinatown area!! The doctor at Clifford Dispensary very nice...she toks and jokes when conducting the checkup, hence made me feel very at ease! :) Think she herself is FS material! Haha...happy when she said i am in a healthy state! I was a little worried about my blood pressure coz that time went to Califonia Fitness, the trainer took my BP and it was slightly to the high side though is not yet hypertension! Sobz tink is coz of my suddenly Coffee craze or my migraine! Both can increase the BP in the body!! Sighz immediately i stopped drinkin coffee and i kept praying that my migraine would go away!! YES my prayers were answered!! Thanks God!! :)

Met up one of my Batch mate at the clinic!! Her name is Jufiah! I guess we clicked instantly bah! LOLZ...we chatted all the way to the Chinatown clinic! Tok about life, how Silkair tortured us by making us wait for their calls n emails, family, BFs etc etc! :) Sensing a wonderful friendship is about to blossom if i realli stay with Silkair!! Y i say so?? I juz got the shortlisted letter from JAL! Yeppie... i got shortlisted to attend their 1st round of interviews on this coming Sat, 29th July 2006! Realli excited about it yet feel a little gulity over silkair! Sighz... i feel i am so greedy! BUT seizing all the possible chances before settling down with an airline company is greedy?? I meant i will go through all the interviews juz like any other gers... i will do my very best juz like all the gers! May God bless me through all these! And one happy thing is...my partner in crime also got shortlisted for JAL! HAHA... hope we both will go all the way this time!!

To my Partner-in-crime >> >> >> >>
Hmmm haha i feel i better dun write ur name coz i tink u might not like it! MUST do your best though u not realli keen in the 10 weeks training in Japan!! LOLZ...is onli 10 weeks la! After that can will be based in Singapore liao! I realli scare i wun be able to attend Sept SIA's recruitment so will realli treasure this JAL opportunity to be able to JIA YOU with u once again! :)
P.S: I am HAPPY again!

Haha okie about airlines stuff... now more to frenz outing!! Met up wif my Twinnie and Yaya after Silkair checkup! Went to a family $10 KTV!! E place is realli cool... though the songz choice is not many, there is free flow of drinks and free Sharkfin soup and it all cost 10 bucks! Super cheap! Yaya, twinnie and i had lots of fun!! Tink i sang a lot!!! So paiseh...i juz couldn't take the mike away from my mouth! :p
After KTV is off to Dearie's hse! I told Dearie about it and despite the place is onli about 5 min walk from his home, Dearie din noe about this KTV! Hehe...me n Dearie already make a date to go try out the KTV tog! Huarry... Gotta get the membership card from Yaya first!

Ytday was catching-up session with xiao ben and wee! The original plan was to dine at kenny rogers suntec but there was a Q at Kenny when we arrived at the restaurant thus e 3 of us settled for n.y.d.c! Wuhaha both of them had baked rice while i order salad!! AND my gosh...the salad serving seems to be bigger than the baked rice sia! I din manage to finish my salad!! Sweats! Oh the mudpie is great! Ordered Band Aid Mudpie and i felt it taste heavenly! Hehe i tink i practically abandoned my jian fei plan ytday!!! Nway took lots of pic tog...using Xiao ben's Hp and camera! So cool... i must get myself a digital camera soon! MUST!


Well now moving on to pharmacy stuff! Today my boss volunteered me got the fake sars/bird flu practice!! Initially i thought it would be quite of a drag but it turned out quite fun! i was responsible in collecting the forms filled up by the patients! :) The exercise lasted about 2 hrs +! The onli thing that i din like was wearing the N95 mask! i irritated the cheeks and it was all red n itchy when i removed the mask! Thanks goodness there is no outbreaks and i hope there wun be! I hope Singapore would be a safe and free from diseases little island! LOLZ...

Wow i wrote so much ah!!! LOLZ... i din realize! :p Before i go... i wanna praise the Lord for all the opportunities that he has given to me! Thanks for answering my prayers! I believe God has a path set out for me... i will do my best along this path! :) I feel so blessed...

Recovering Stage!!!!

Recovering Stage!!!!

Sighz... my health realli sux for the past week and i am extremely glad tat i am at the recovering stage! Well... at least tat is where i hope i am now!! Lolz... been sufferin from a series of migraine attacks! Sickening sia!! The worst attack was on friday where i practically broke down in tears in front of my SOC bosses! I felt so embarrassed but the pain juz got to me and all my colleagues were shouting ard! Sighz... i juz could not control tat sickening pressure at the right side of my head! Well... now taking mefenamic acid... So far so good!! The pain seems to be less active liao! LOLZ... Hopefully by the end of this week, my head will be good as new!

Thanks to my colleague... Corrina whom i wun think will ever read this bloggie entry of mine (Haha...) for saying a prayer for me!! I supposed God did hear the prayer!! :)

As my health is recovering, i am waiting patiently for my purse to be recovered with $$$!!! Can't wait for pay day!! been spendin quite a lot these few dayz! Ytday went out with HOPE gang and spend quite a bit! Went to V8 for dinner, bought body shop aloe vera facial wash, sasa facial masks from korea and a kawaii note book from Shibuya! Oh no... guess i will be eating bread and drinkin plain water for this week! Can any kind soul provide me with my 3 meals this week?! :p

Today is JAL's official closing date for accepting applications! I supposed they will start shortlisting their potential candidates soon and giving them a call or email! Really hope I am one the gers they want but i have this strong feeling tat i am not!! Don't really have a good feeling over JAL! Firstly, the pictures tat i send in were not good and secondly, i do not know Japanese!! Wa Wa Wa... the website say the shortlisted gers will be informed by 24th july! Well if by then no calls or emails... i can onli say... IS FATED! Hope my pals get shortlisted... praying!!

Before i sign off... i juz wanna shout out... Ryohei Chiba is SOOOO KAWAII! *blushed*
And now... sigh have to go do some hsework... then pom pom and off to zzz...

W-inds



Thanks to my Dearie... I found new motivation in life le! LOLZ... realli like the song "Four Seasons" by W-inds! Tink i am realli slow... they been ard the japanese music scene for quite some time le but is onli now tat i realli kinda of took notice! Sweats... Anyway juz enjoy the PV! Is realli nice... both the music n PV coz W-inds are juz such pretty little things to look at! LOLZ...

A picture for you all to drool...

A Brand New Beginning With My Brand New Bloggie...

A Brand New Beginning With My Brand New Bloggie...


This post marks a new beginning of my life! Going to start a new life very soon!! Juz got the email from Silkair stating that i got a place with Silkair as a cabin crew member and i have to go for a pre-employment medical checkup on 25th july!! Hmmm have a mixed feeling about the whole thing... both happy and sad! Juz like what my MSN nick.. I am happy but i could have been happier! Realli hope tat my partner-in-crime could be with me! Sighz i supposed humans can't be too greedy but yet, we juz can't help but to be so! That is y we are called HUMANS! Lolz...

I really like my new bloggie's address... ! Haha the address really sounds simple! Actually wee wee suggested the bloggie address to be xigua-licious which i think is super cool! Such an original name... wun u guys agree??! Think onli wee can come out with such names! Hands up for wee! :) But after some consideration, i decided to settle with my present one! Y? Honestly i was inspired by one of the sermons done by Paster Kong!

Pastor Lawrence Kong once asked... What is a simple life? Is it a farmer who plants his crops to get enough food to feed his family all year round or a business man who drives a big car and lives in a big house!!? Of course most people would choose the farmer!! However the answer that Pastor kong gave to us was BOTH are living a simple life! As long as they believe in God... they will live a life tat is simple and free from worries! Having faith in God will guide them through their ups and downs! :) I really hope to live such a life hence this blog address! No matter how my life is... i can say my life is simple! God made it simple for me...

For a moment... reminds me of the hilarious show by Paris hilton n her fren, or izzit now enemies, Nicole Richie! Ah little bimbo-ish but my blog has nothing to do with it! Wuhaha... but do i sound bimbo-ish??! :/ I think i act kinda bimbo-ish at times... guess there is a bit of this in every gers...

To end off this opening ceremony entry...
I juz hope this bloggie will be filled with happy and interesting memories...
Hope there is always sunshine in my life...
Even if there is supposed to be some light showers or thuderstorms in my life...
Hope there will always be sunshine after the rain...
Praying... :)