One Man's Business

One Man's Business

sighz.. wrote a whole pile of junk.. onli to decide to juz delete the whole entry...

nothing much to complain about coz is the same old story over and over again..

nothing to be boost about.. nothing to be proud of too..

i juz wanna say.. i am very tired...

Extremely exhausted...

I have nv felt so lost or alone before... but this is a one man's business!

i shall learn to deal it myself...

sorry i had bother...

Power Of Independence!

Power Of Independence!

At times i juz wish i could be stronger... emotionally independent... physically independent... and spiritually independent!!

Everyday we mix ard with a variety of pple.. family... lovers... frenz... colleagues.. or even juz strangers... there is a possible impact on oneself! i love the relationship between people.. coz it always amazed me how pple can interact with one another!! but at times, i juz dislike the feeling of being influenced by others' actions or words.

I told myself... keep reminding myself not to be affected coz i believe tat strength is from oneself and not given by others.. however, i'm always blinded by situations and pple ard me! Getting affected.. getting moody or frustrated!!! i detest myself being such a weakling... an dividual with no solid stand for myself.

recently.. Find myself trying to please pple ard me till e extend that i feel quite mentally off! so many things that happen.. from then to now... but it still left a very fresh wound! it felt juz like ytday! countless of blank-ed moments... teary moments... frustrating moments... sadden moments... insecure moments... somehow they din leave me! ironically, they seemed to be acculumating over time. how nice i could abandon them?!! juz drop them off my shoulders....

from a close fren of mine once say... LOVE URSELF MORE!

at times i wonder how this phrase works! maybe i shd realli start pondering about it...

had always admired those care-free indivduals... successfully yet humble... independence mind and soul.. with an independence outlook of life and the things ard them! is hard to achieve.. yes i noe!!

But hey.. things will onli happen if u try...

Need some time by myself... to do some thinking.. some time to myself.. simply learning to love myself JUZ a little bit more... winks...

Having The Same Skies

Having The Same Skies...

Finally went jogging in the late evening! to much surprised.. there were so many pple at the reservoir and then it was when i realize tat today was a sun and tml is a public holiday! :) days are no longer impt to me... dates are!

as i was jogging.. saw a few planes flew past! suddenly tot of the gentlemen and ladies workin on those fighter planes, cargo planes or commercial planes... what a wonder feeling to conquer the skies! :) suddenly i am glad i am part of this big family...

Suddenly... miss all the pple i noe! :) though all of us are having the same skies... seeing the same skies... we can be so far apart.. we can be so different!

Lots of things happened recently that changed my view to life significantly.. :)

i am missing someone out there... lookin out of the window... i wonder is he lookin out of the window.. seeing the same moon and stars.. seein the skies that i am seeing now.. :) he will always be an impt part of my life... he used to be... he now is... so will he be in the future..

coz we are havin the same skies above us... :)

Out Of Hand

Spinning Out Of Control

Juz within 3 days, so many things had happened!! had to cope with all kind of events happening at one go and the stress from all aspects of life!

i am not complaining but juz tryin to cope the current situation well! had lots of things on my mind which gave me zzz-less nights! thanks gooodness was able to doze off last night wif some pee pee breaks! lolz...

it is kind of surprising that how a human's brain can function in a way that it could accommdate so many things!! however it is tiring! yes i feel i have no right to be the one using the word "tiring" but i am realli exhausted! not from work but more of the personal level!

he said time could be a healing factor! no doubt it would... however with each day passing, i could feel the numbness!! is like having a slow death.. maybe one day we dun feel anymore!

she promised to let me go ahead with my studies but often i hear words of protest and discouragment! it dampen my spirits.. but i will have to hold on... hopefully things will turn for the better!

once again the burden of earning money fell on me again!! getting to feel the pressure again.. but what to do... i will juz go on..

i dun tink will be blogging for the time being after this entry... juz need a break.. to collect my tots.. :) plus i realli hope to blog happy moments of my life but sad to say.. there is none at present...

huggie to all that had been encouraging me!! taking time out to sms me... meeting me after work... those dinner toks... hey! i will be fine... i juz need time.. juz like every one needs...

Simply... Cranky...

Simply... Cranky...

Back from my phuket flight! shit... i dunno whether is it considered a shitty flight! the flight was not realli a bad one.. well i had worse before! BUT i feel so damn exhausted, moody and realli GREAT, i hurt my right wrist! pulled out a loaded cart all by myself and i think i pulled a muscle or smthing!! i din realize e pain till the returning sector when i was loadin my meals into the cart! instantly the sian-ism creeped in! i never like to be injured due to work factor coz is simply not worth at all! who will pity? NO ONE from work for sure... and u urself to bear the consequences! sighz...

service was super slow for the 2 sectors due to some reasons which i chose not to say! i think opinions differ so i shall juz keep my tots to myself! i'm juz glad for the two sectors, we din land with trays!

Guess when i am in a foul mood, i snap at almost everyone! there were so many pple at the interchange that i practically juz wanna use my trolley bag to roll over anyone or anything that steps into my way! irritating stares from strangers when i walked by! i used to beam with pride from those stares but now.. zzz!!

yeah yeah!! so what i have my hair pushed and nicely tied up?! so what i have thick makeup on my face?! so what i am pulling a trolley bag ard?! so what i am a cabin crew?! juz keep ur stare to yourself...

ah ah... i think i am in a very very bad mood! getting cranky.. super cranky!! i even snapped at my dearie which made me super guilty! he done nothing wrong..

SORRIE snakie! spolit ur evening... made u miss the party with ur pals!! during the phone conversation juz now... guess my tone wasn't nice! i realli wanna say i miss you too but the words juz seemed to drown down my throat! so now i wanna let u to know... I MISS YOU TOO! :)

Missing You

Missing Him....

I am missing someone...

Missing someone very dear...

Yes i am missing you...

My big Snakie... :)

Come home soon...

The Stone is Dropped!!

The Stone Is Dropped!!!

Feel so relieved! Happy! Excited! :) i passed my Final theory test and now setting my eyes on practical! me going to chiong chiong.. can't wait to drive!!

i simply can't wait to drive my own car to pick dearie up from his regular chill up spot with his "rat" pals, wearing my mickey mouse furry slippers! maybe with a bell attached to my slippers! WUHAHAHA... can't wait to drive my dearie crazy with my chop chop smooth driving and the ringing of the bells from my slippers as i step onto the accelerator or depress the clutch pedal! EVIL LUFF...

it feels great to be one step closer to driving! winks... feel so blessed when i see my dearie waiting for me at the driving centre! so happy to share the goodie news with my dearis at first hand! so glad to have his BAO BAO... :)

at this very moment... hime juz feel like a hime (princess)!! *grinning*

Kota Kinabalu

Surprises On Kota Kinabalu Flight!

:) is an eventful day with some pleasant surprises in stored for me during my Kota kinabalu flight! great crew with fantastic pax... if realli i dun feel tat fatigue due to my tat time of the mth (wuhahaha!) or else everything would be perfect!

did business class AGAIN! been working business class for the past 2 weeks and damn, i think i will be super lost when i go back to work at the aft! LOLZ!! maybe as blur as a newbie! :p

met a big character during my going sector! chat with him as he was seated at business class!! he taught me lots of stuff about life... his words are realli very motivating!! can tell is a very knowledgable and humble businessmen despite his achievements! :) at the age of 63 yrs old, he totally dun look his age and he so alert during the entire conversations! his trick?? do lots of shujoku! lolz...

returning sector, met a pax that recognized me during one of his previous manado flight however i realli couldn't rem! LOLZ! felt super gulity!! he is a nice chap!! well... onli managed to chat with him for awhile after the flight when disembarking and later before leaving the departure transit at the duty free shop! darn.. shd pass him a comment form onboard sia! lolz.. it always feel nice to be rem or praised due to ur hard work and good customer service! JOB satisfaction at its peak man!!!

felt this flight realli lifted my spirits for work! been quite restless for the past few flights... maybe due to the long vac off not too long ago! had too much fun then.. winks..

been thinkin a lot these few days! been pondering over questions... but i guess i will onli noe the answers when it realli happened! but one thing for sure.. no matter what the decision is.. i will stay by it coz the decision is solely by me and hence... my responsibility! :)

being a woman is hard... being an independent woman is even harder but tat is what i strive for.. :)

juz the 2 of us

Juz His Hime & Her Snakie...

Wuhahaha me supposed to be hoppin into bed and making my way to la la land as tml i have an early yangon flight! but Before i do that.. juz a short bloggie entry! :)

Had a great day out with my dearie!! :) disppointing levi/victoria secrets etc warehouse sales caused can't find anything to buy.. taking slow strolls at pasir ris park while feasting on yummy ice cream.. yum yum the famous changi village nasi lemak... shoppin at MPH and Metro warehouse sales at EXPO which was a success.. :) nothing beats the great acc of my snakie...

wuhahaha... love his new hair cut! look more boyish... :p

bought a book titled... WHY MEN DUN LISTEN and WOMAN CAN'T READ MAPS...

read a few pages and hmmm... seems interesting.. it made me wanna read on but NO NO NO... now i have to zzz!! tml have to focus on my FTT first... hahaha the book have to wait! winks... but i'm sure it will be a joy readin the book coz i wannna noe y my snakie dun listen to me... LOLZ!!!

Chant: bad snakie... hime stomp stomp.. big bad snakie...

WUHAHAHAHAHA............

nitey nitey world...

Unexpected Turn Of Events

Unexpected Turn Of Events

Unexpected off day! :) went work with a reluctant heart and it turned out my prayers were answered! My flight crew had been taken off MI756 to operate MI518 due to bad weather at yangon!! Waited aimlessly for 2 hrs and was asked to step down.. go home! LOLZ!! spent the whole afternoon eating.. drinkin.. eating.. drinkin... FAT LA!

simply.. delightfully... loved the unexpected of today! *winks*

yes! i finally bought the charles and keith high heels shoes! cost me a freakin 43 dollars and end up with abrasion on both of my foot! wore them on thurs to meet Dearie and frenz at Tampines mall! shit lor...


my right foot...


my left foot...

DAMN PAIN I TELL U!! so pain till i wear my normal covered shoes also pain hence forced to wear slippers instead! SO unlucky ting is... ytday walking home from work, my slippers gave way and i had to wear my working silkair shoes home! shit.. then i juz had to specially make a trip to interchange to buy some $6.90 cheapo slippers!! i realli cannot wear any covered shoes... sighz... nu ren ai mei la...

sighz... awhile later have to revise for my FTT on wed!! hope can pass pass..

Chanting.. PASS FTT! PASS FTT....