Reality Check

Reality Checked Flight

After so long... i finally got a fuck up flight!!! Well.. is ain't tat bad as i had worse before but i had too many smooth, fun and zap-less flights tat i somehow let my guards down. i allowed myself to fall in too comfortable in this dog-eat-dog airline world. Today's flight reminded me how harsh and insensitive airline culture can be! Sighz.. reality sinking in..

Nevertheless, i'm keeping my head high coz i still believe i had done my best in whatever i do. if my efforts are deemed as not enough... then there is nothing much i can do liao. i can never please everyone!! Even if i could, i choose not to!

One thing comforting is tat both sectors pax had been such a dear to me! :) appreciativeand friendly!! charming gentlemen and lovely ladies...

Something happened on broad tat made my flight not so borin as it is... :) it got my crew in charge so hyped up!! well... as the same.. rem the good stuff and forget the bad stuff... wish this can be easier done than said.

Hmmm smthing hit me today!! how tired can one be?!! physically hungin by a thread with onli 2 hrs zzz... emotionally draining with each fell... i din noe i had become so tired till now. i need to re-charge but kind of clueless of how to do so. no worries.. i will work things out...

Morning Flight.. Finally!

Morning Flight... Finally!!

Called in to crew schedule 3 times ytday for any morning flights which allow me to touchdown before 5pm...

Finally.. called me at 4.30 am for morning surabaya! crew scheduling guy did keep to his words afterall... winks!!

feeling little tired... zzz had not been well for me but hey... life still goes on!! i still have work coz i noe money doesn't fall from the sky into my pocket. :)

as this fren of mine once text to me, "Yo sis, dun think so much. Ha ha just do what you need to do everyday and you will get by :)" surprisinly.. i still have tat message!!!

how true can it be!!! :) coming from someone who did show me tat he is very happy with his life... so i shd try to be happy with mine!

Juz hopin for a pat on the back... but guess the person that will do so is none other than myself...

Officially Declared JANICE Day

Officially Declared JANICE Day

noe i promised my Dear tat i won't on the com.. i wun log surf the net... but i must must blog this out! so this is a quick update!! :) i would say AMUSING!!

Was called up for evenin phuket and guess what... hahaha... there are 3 Janice(s) on broad!! Apparently all the Janice(s) workin in Silkair are operating today's MI 756/755! LOLZ!!! simply amused... it shd be going down in silkair history...

When the welcome announcement was made... i simply couldn't hold back my laughters!! "Assisting me today are... Janice Lim, Janice Chew, Janice Ng..." what a rare thing to hear... winks...

Woo hoo... captain had made e flight a DECLARED JANICE DAY flight... :)

What happen u placed 3 janice(s) tog on one flight?? ah ng, ah lim + ah chew = FUN!! nothing but shitty fun.. lolz...

Good Morning...

Goodie Morning...

i'm up and ready for work! :)

After a night zzz... though not realli a gd one, it was sufficient for me...

Guess i am better off as Hime... HIS hime!! Striking to be a good hime... :)

Part of me still thinks... by default.. we can be one big happy family...

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Nothing is By Default....

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After much tot.. i felt tat i shd deleted the previous post! is nothing negative about deleting the post... juz realize life ain't tat simple as it is.

I was pulled down to reality tat there is nothing by default... and sadly, there is no by default a happy fairytale ending!! happiness is not by default! it is smthing tat need to be worked hard for.. no matter is a couple's happines or self happiness.. all needs time and patience.

today made me realize how much words can fail me!! and how overactive my imagination can be!! always thinkin n concludin things tat din happen.. tink this trait of mine killed me!!

Maybe i worry too much... maybe i fear too much... maybe i shd have been more honest... There is so many maybe tat i simply juz wanna ignore all these MAYBE(s)!

what is going thru his head is smting i might not like!! it could also be smting tat i'm tired about! i am not blamin anyone... and i am also not blamin myself! i am juz wondering... and prayin tat i could have been more observant and understanding to him!

He asked me whether i could even rem what were the tings we did tog! i rem... but is it pointless to say! perhaps to me at tat moment is pointless ba coz the whole discussion is not about remembering events or items.

Yes i noe is a critical time. yes i noe is such a wrong move to pull such a stunt!! yes i know about lots of things and yet i still go do it. tink tat is want tat hurts him most ba... no more excuses le... at least no more excuses from me...

the chance is given and i had mis-used it... i shall live wif tat. consequences i shall bear even if it kills... and squeeze the life out of me!

juz now... as i was standin there...in front of him... i realized i am no longer the ger who wants to argued her way out of things... i din wan to push on... no tears when we parted... juz tots to myself... a moment of silence to myself...

i realize i am becoming more n more like him each day... someone dear to me and i will always remember... it dawn on me tat i am not living each day remembering him but i am living each passing day like him... silence was his best fren.. perhaps one day it shall be mine.

he is someone tat i took pride in... coz he had nv let me down...

behind tat steerin wheel.. on tat driver's seat... i finally can see myself in him..... :)