Juz A Conversation
Juz A Conversation
"Juz a conversation" is what he said... but that is surely one big hell of a saddening, frustrated and disappointing conversation. i could not say for him.. but at least is for me!
Yes i will still blog!! happy or sad! angry or with a peace of mind! and i am sure he noe that i will! he understands me well enough to guess what i have up in my sleeves! :) i hate when he reads me like a blank piece of paper... but hey tat's him!
Though tog for onli about 6 mths, those mths felt like it contained yrs of build up frustration and quarrels! perhaps due to those unhappy times, the HAPPY moments seem so dear and precious. :) is juz like if there is no bad pple in this world, how can there be good pple!
i'm feeling.. blank-ed! kind of tired of the situation... brain somehow been overused for the past few days! On what?? seriously i also dunno lehz! maybe is my sensitivity tat is the main culprit pushing me to my limits!? if so... shit lor!! simply detest my sensitivity!! juz like what the fortune teller once said, i must stay away from jade fore my name contains too many "YU" chinese character! jade so fragile! once drop.. GONE! i dun wan be like tat ah... yet at times i am.
Said some mean things but i do not deny tat there are some truth in it! i dun feel sorry about the words said! however the onli thing i regret is the way i brought the message across. if onli god can turn back the hands time, i will be more careful with my words n tone. words can kill and this poin is made very true between him n me!
i seek comfort and suppport from a relationship. honestly i had them both from him but maybe at times, when men gets greedy, the comfort dun seem enough! or shd i say when at the breakin point... the comfort i need is beyond what the other party could give. i am not trying to say there are better guys out there who could give me tat degree of comfort!!! DUN GET ME WRONG!! i juz feel tat true comfort is from oneself... when u are able to find ur own peace of mind. others can onli beside u.. listen to ur complains n misery, but it comes to the root of the problem, is up to urself to deal with it! perhaps tat is y i seldom tok about my problem to my frenz.. well i would not say dun have la!! juz lesser! :p
i could tell he changed a lot for me!! hmmm maybe not changed but took efforts to accept what i am! i had done my part as well but maybe is not enough on my part! realized tat i been asking more n giving less. think is also time for some self reflection le... so i wun cry this time round!! tears somehow seem like an irony at this stage.
received this sms from a fren:
i see... den it's e indifference between u 2 ba..
still something that you will need but he can't give and some part of his character you still cannot accept totally ba..
slowly ba.. cheer up :)
YES! support from my pillar wee wee!! comfort from my acceptance of the indifference..
i will work hard for US! (not america for goodness sake ah!!!) :) 6 mths dun come easy for us... braved thru much.. hence the onli right route for us is to move forward together for a better future!
HIME JIA YOU!!!
"Juz a conversation" is what he said... but that is surely one big hell of a saddening, frustrated and disappointing conversation. i could not say for him.. but at least is for me!
Yes i will still blog!! happy or sad! angry or with a peace of mind! and i am sure he noe that i will! he understands me well enough to guess what i have up in my sleeves! :) i hate when he reads me like a blank piece of paper... but hey tat's him!
Though tog for onli about 6 mths, those mths felt like it contained yrs of build up frustration and quarrels! perhaps due to those unhappy times, the HAPPY moments seem so dear and precious. :) is juz like if there is no bad pple in this world, how can there be good pple!
i'm feeling.. blank-ed! kind of tired of the situation... brain somehow been overused for the past few days! On what?? seriously i also dunno lehz! maybe is my sensitivity tat is the main culprit pushing me to my limits!? if so... shit lor!! simply detest my sensitivity!! juz like what the fortune teller once said, i must stay away from jade fore my name contains too many "YU" chinese character! jade so fragile! once drop.. GONE! i dun wan be like tat ah... yet at times i am.
Said some mean things but i do not deny tat there are some truth in it! i dun feel sorry about the words said! however the onli thing i regret is the way i brought the message across. if onli god can turn back the hands time, i will be more careful with my words n tone. words can kill and this poin is made very true between him n me!
i seek comfort and suppport from a relationship. honestly i had them both from him but maybe at times, when men gets greedy, the comfort dun seem enough! or shd i say when at the breakin point... the comfort i need is beyond what the other party could give. i am not trying to say there are better guys out there who could give me tat degree of comfort!!! DUN GET ME WRONG!! i juz feel tat true comfort is from oneself... when u are able to find ur own peace of mind. others can onli beside u.. listen to ur complains n misery, but it comes to the root of the problem, is up to urself to deal with it! perhaps tat is y i seldom tok about my problem to my frenz.. well i would not say dun have la!! juz lesser! :p
i could tell he changed a lot for me!! hmmm maybe not changed but took efforts to accept what i am! i had done my part as well but maybe is not enough on my part! realized tat i been asking more n giving less. think is also time for some self reflection le... so i wun cry this time round!! tears somehow seem like an irony at this stage.
received this sms from a fren:
i see... den it's e indifference between u 2 ba..
still something that you will need but he can't give and some part of his character you still cannot accept totally ba..
slowly ba.. cheer up :)
YES! support from my pillar wee wee!! comfort from my acceptance of the indifference..
i will work hard for US! (not america for goodness sake ah!!!) :) 6 mths dun come easy for us... braved thru much.. hence the onli right route for us is to move forward together for a better future!
HIME JIA YOU!!!
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